Little Owl

 Caroline started at the Learning Tree this morning.  This photo was taken right before we left.  It was a very different story once we got there.

I keep thinking of that new Sonic commercial where the passenger drinking his milkshake says, "For a guy with a face tattoo he turned out to be dangerous." You think he is going to say "he was nice", or "he wasn't that bad" but he doesn't.  It was exactly as he thought it was going to be.

I thought today was going to be really hard on myself and Caroline and it was. It was exactly how I thought it was going to be - Awful.

 Everyone at the Learning Tree was sweet and wonderful.  The nursery workers were loving on all the babies, talking & playing with them when we got there.  I knew she was in good hands.  Caroline wasn't so sure.

The head lady took Caroline out of her car seat and placed her in a near by bouncy while I explained her feeding schedule. At first she laid there content ,then she saw me leave and started bawling.  Not good on momma. I practically sprinted to my car. All the way to school I cried.  The good news is I only had 6 minutes to get it out {very nice my school is so close} I called Chris- he made me feel so much better.

I finished my meeting around 1-ish and didn't stick around long. I know it is so irrational feeling the way I did but I wanted to see my baby as fast as I could. Tomorrow all the counselors and administers officially start 8-4 but today we were able to leave early.

I got to The Learning Tree & went straight to her classroom.  Her teachers reported she didn't have a good day.  Her nap was interrupted by her next door neighbor crying.  She wouldn't go back to sleep. Her teacher said all babies have a hard first week. I thought "WEEK... great I was hoping it would be hard today only." They got her from a floor mat and she had major tear stains on her face.  She was sucking hard core on her pacifier.  

When she saw me she gave a big smile dropping the pacifier on the floor -I was just as glad to see her! She hung on to me tight when we were leaving. I really need tomorrow to be better.